Tuesday, August 30, 2011

ramblings#71

fine that's how you want it. apparently i mean nothing. and that is why it is so fucked up. friendship wasn't ever a real intention. i'm just there to fill a void. a gap whenever you're bored. when there is nothing else going on. when its convenient. i don't know you. i have got to get out of here. i'm drowning. why couldn't you have just left?

and even if i could say or show the bottom of my soul. my fucking throbbing heart spilled all over the stage, it wouldn't mean anything to you.

get me out of here.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

ramblings#70

you know i have really been trying. do you think it is easy? no it's not. but i have been trying my best. and for what? obviously i am the only one who cares. all of my actions seem to mean nothing. all the thought i have put into everything. the pain, the humiliation, the stress. apparently my relationship in any form doesn't really mean anything.

its a horrorshow.


Sunday, August 21, 2011

ramblings#69

i don't know. i don't know anymore. look at it any way you like. i don't know anymore.
you can tell me that i do. but i don't. that's probably hard to face.

you smug faced crowd with kindling eye
who cheer as soldier lads march by
sneak home and pray you'll never know
the hell where youth and laughter go

Saturday, August 13, 2011

ramblings#68

cause its a long ways to go, a hard row to hoe
its a long way to go, but in the meantime