ramblings#2

the time we spend wasting time. i don't want to waste another second of my life. i never want to be complacent again. i was taught this lesson so long ago. when did i decide that it wasn't important? now i feel that it is the most important aspect of my life. i will be done with school in two years. i hope that i can start or join a band like the BITERS or the Booze. i want that for myself right now. this week i have decided that i don't want to double major in music. it was weird coming to this realization that i never wanted to be a studio musician. i never wanted to be a band teacher or a guitar instructor. at least at this point. i want to become the best musician that i can be. i think that four semesters of music theory have been useful tools to better me as a musician. and i want to start taking lessons and playing so much more consistently. but i never wanted to be making a living off of music, just to say i was making a living off of music. i want to do it on my terms. i can't hold myself back any longer. i need to write and play and really reach for the stars. i love playing bluegrass music. i love rock and roll. i love the idea of being in a rock and roll band with people that get it. The BITERS get it. THe Booze get it. The Avett Brothers get it. Nick gets it. Jake gets it. I get it. You know who i really admire in regards to being a musician. Kyle Greenburg. He is not a music major, yet he puts in so much time and effort on his instrument. It is so awesome to see the dedication and effort that he puts in to not only music, but a lot of the aspects of his life. it inspires me to do the same. music is so crucial. it's hard right now. i need new music. i need the music that has never let me down. i need to just crank up an old tube amp and melt into the tone that rattles my teeth. because music is in the bones. i don't know where the fuck i got it from. but it's in the bones. it's in the bones.