ramblings#6(thoughtsonabrokenscanner)

i make it a point to try and write these out physically. i like it that way. i feel human. not that i will go on and on about how the internet is the ruin of mankind. i think it's a very useful tool, and it is helping me release. i have no complaints there. but right now my usage is very purposeful. i hope that it remains that way. anyway. when i write these out physically i like to photograph them. and then upload them. i can't wait to do that. i have a back log of work that has been flowing out of me. but it's just as good to get them out, as it is to upload them. i don't need to upload them. but i would like to. it feels nice to share these things. even if they are going unheard, the act of putting it out there for anyone and everyone is the important part.
astronomy. how fun. i can not wait to finish this course. the things we go through. and come out stronger, wiser, and better. It is hard to see. hard to remind yourself. but ultimately true.
i feel the need to get a tattoo. it is good to get them in times of trial. it reminds you forever what you went through. i have been considering a tiger head for a long time. thinking purely that i like the idea of an old sailor jerry type tiger head, just because. i have a lion's roar inside my head. waking me up, never letting me rest. it's a good thing.
i'm on this path. i enjoy the journey. when i think of where i have been, and where i am, i am amazed. where i will be tomorrow i don't know. that's more exciting than it sounds.
i ordered rob bell's new book. i need something to focus on. i love reading. i love learning. i love searching. i am excited to read this book. the george washington biography is good, however i need a little more right now. i need something to chew on. i'm a biter.
once school is over i will go home. and spend some time with my friends. that's who they are. it's so good to be that with them. never take any relationship for granted. our interactions with human beings mean so much more than we think they do. i am working on the ones that i can. some i can not work on at this point. in time i will be able to. i am learning to be content to focus on the ones that i can now. there is a lesson in it. i am sure of it.
i like poetry. peter doherty is a poet. he really is. the scenes he paints are so vivid and honest. he is an english rose himself. rising to the occasion of the times. inviting us to china town for opium and tea. pray don't look back into the sun. the time will come, and they said it would never come for you.
so much in my head. i let it leak out onto the screen. guard down. horse is brown. people learn, change and grow. they are not predetermined to be someone. things happen because you make them happen. that's true to some extent. be honest. be willing. listen. i have not done that in too long. i pray its not too late. it never is.
it never is.